36 weeks!

I went to H&M over the weekend to pick-up a few last minute tops I can wear as my belly continues to expand. For $5, I should have gotten 2 or 3 of these tops!

Last night we met with our doula and, once again, she instilled in us a sense of confidence and calm.  I was telling Matt that regardless of how my labor turns out, the fact that I'm not stressed about it or fearful, has made Cheryl (the doula) worth every penny.  We keep hearing over and over again that there are 2 things that can really work against you in labor:  fear and fatigue.  I'm not scared.  Fighting fatigue will be the biggest battle.

Hormones

My pregnancy hormones got the best of me today.  We were in Babies R Us, which is a terribly depressing place to begin with.  We were looking at a co-sleeper bassinet thing to use for the first 3-4 months after Tray is born.  Matt thought maybe we should wait to buy it to see if it became necessary (the other option is that we we're going to move the crib into our room).  I guess I must have already made up my mind that we needed this thing because I suddenly became very unhappy that we weren't on the same page.

Acting out of some kind of urge I could not control, we bought the item and as soon as we got into the car, I had a breakdown.  I seriously lost complete control of my emotions.  I couldn't have stopped crying if I'd wanted to!  This has never happened to me before.  Normally I can calm myself down and breathe it out.  Not this time!  I was totally out of breath and the big crocodile tears kept coming! 

Poor Matt!  He has a crazy big emotionally unstable pregnant wife! 

I'm fine now, by the way.  :)